It's Always Something

For the past two weeks I have been dealing with insane allergies- not unlike most people. The thing I am not used to, however, is this sore throat that tagged along with my other usual symptoms. I have found that it is only painful when I wake up in the morning, and whenever I talk a lot or decide I would like to play my clarinet!

I haven't been able to play very much recently because of this, and it is a little strange because I have found myself really wanting to practice during this time. Since it is painful to play, I have found myself feeling very unhappy and unfulfilled. Not to mention anxious with juries and lessons and rehearsals with my trio and accompanist! As well as playing in wind ensemble and sectionals for that. There is a concert coming up and things are getting a bit rigorous in that department.

I really despise the feeling that is anxious. (Not quite as much as I hate feeling jealous, but they are close). This feeling to me is uncontrollable and I don't know what to do about it considering the only way I can think of is by practicing.....hence, I am in a little bit of a rut! I know I am not prepared for the lesson I am to have today at 3 o'clock, but I can't bring myself to cancel it. I don't want to cancel it! I just feel like there is so much I have to do before then end of this school year, and having lessons and talking about it really helps me.

That is what has been going on recently, and I am not a fan. There always seems to be some issue! Hopefully it clears up soon................... :)